so im a little worried to put this on here, but it my blog, for me to write down what i feel, so i guess its ok. recently ive put on a fair amount of weight, and everyones saying how healthy i look. but im not feeling healthy, im feeling grossed out by it. i mean, im so proud of myself for putting it all on, because i know im roughly where i should be now, but i miss the flat stomach and i feel less attractive. the funny thing is, im no longer obsessing over calories, if anything im binging. i guess i just need to start exercising and get toned up, thats what id rather do, eat whatever i want, accept my body and just tone everything. i hope this is possible, one thing i do know, is that im not going back to being stick thin, i feel so much happier emotionally now ive started eating properly, im so proud, i hope you are too? bring on the toning up and exercise :D goodbye eating disorder!!