so im feeling very very shit, like beyond shit. i thought i was ok with everything, but really im not, not at all. i like gemm, but more as a friend i guess? bazz and i have been talking, we're looking at getting a house together, does anyone else see carnage? i wish it was you who was moving in instead, but hey, he's paying half the bills and hes only back on weekends. im not ok helen, im not ok without you, im not ok with this whole fucked up situation. i want my life back, i want you back. what the fuck do you want?