so sat here, and ive got your stupid voice in the video of you with the elf hat on where you're all like "i dont know howw, to turn this thing offf!! freyaass goona make me some...breakfast!" and then you freestyle ;) well that stupid rambling you do, is how i feel right now. im shattered, but cant bring myself to go to sleep. its been a strange day today, not one ive enjoyed after about 1 pm. but blerghhhh!!! been up nattering to people, nothing interesting going on, fuck knows how im going to get that red strain out the carpet though from where wine was spilt...not happy :( dad wants a big chat tomorrow, figure out the future career choices etc, oh dear! point being, im absolutely shattered, last night i was so happy, got past some of a big fear of mine (to all who read this and dont know my past, im sure you can figure it out), felt safe and looked after, like i wasnt going to be hurt. anyhow, sleep time.

night y'all! x