ok so first things first, an ad for bristol aquarium just came on tv, take me please?! anyhow, so yeah, im not really sure what to write tonight or what to say. ive spent the evening watching videos, making notes for when i write some more of the book, the little memories that keep being triggered. ive also seen soph and callum tonight, so that was pretty nice. theres so much i feel i need to write, but those thoughts arent really ones i wish to share with everyone who reads this. ive been so relaxed and happy the last few days, ive slept well,  falling asleep feeling contented and safe. thats something i havent felt for a while, falling asleep and being excited to go to sleep, excited to wake up. its not 23:43 and im shattered. as for lorna, im not sure how im feeling about everything, ive been pretty standofish with her the past couple of days, lotta stuff on my mind, i dont mean to be, i just cant exactly explain it all to her. right now i dont know how im feeling about going to ireland, or if i want to go or not.  blerghhhh, sleep time.

ciao and sleep well
xxx