up, down, up, down...thats all it seems to be right now. one minute i can forget what im feeling, feel normal and ok, the next, im crying again and im verging on having a panick attack. but this time, you arent there to slow it, or stop it. just feeling a bit meh at the moment, i just need to know where i stand, if you love me and want me to wait, tell me, if youre letting go, tell me, but dont leave me in the dark. i went to college today and start back next week, not sure how to feel, i think its going to be stressful, brett wants to help me but it means facing loads of people. just feeling a bit lost :/