wow, so its been 12 days since ive last posted, theres a hell of a lot i want to say about life right now, but i sometimes think its better just to keep stuff to yourself than going on a massive rant over the internet. thats the weird things thats happening at the moment, im so used to saying what i feel, showing people how i feel, and suddenly im hardly telling anyone whats up or whats going on, not in a bad way, just in a kind of, no one else needs to hear my shit kind of way? i dunno, i guess because i know that no amount of opening up will sort it all out, this is more of a 'wait patiently and give it time' type thing, and ofcourse being proactive. on a different note, minehead was amazing,  as well as all the fun stuff thats been going on the past couple of weeks, but i will write about that all this evening. its now 07:10am and ive been up since half 6, dad woke me with a cuppa tea in bed, so that was rather lovely. holly and I are off to do a carboot today, not sure if im looking forward to it or dreading it, the weathers crap! either way, welcome to the new 'conservative' freya :/ its so bad its to the point where i folded all of my clothes when i took them off last night and laid out everything i needed for today...im never this organised or tidy! ah well, gonna try grab another half hours sleep.

ciao everyone
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