writing hurts, ive hardened myself up, the barriers have gone up, but now when i have to write something important, its a nightmare. it goes one of two ways, and i have choices. i can either sit and stare blankly at the page and not be able to come up with anything to write, or i can allow myself to feel everything, have a bit of a breakdown but be able to write. rahhh :'(

so ive come to the conclusion, men are infact very useless and very lazy, its only when they get in to their 20's that they finally grow up. and this is why im a lesbian. i mean, ive had jake living with me for just over a week now, and MY GOD is he doing my head in, its fun and all and we have a laugh, but its like taking care of a child! rahhhhhh!

erm...wow...im all up for punishment, but thats a bit extreme!

mhmmm ;)

awkward moment when my shes more interested in what im saying and up to than you are (y)

Staying far away from you hurts as much as having you here with me. Because I know that either way, I’ll never really get to be with you.

It feels so different being here,
I was so used to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There's no one to turn to.
I don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over - it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.
I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not to blame at all.
when I'm the one that pushed you away.
Baby if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere
Girl I should've been right there.

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

Girl I'm losin' my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad, I can't sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
God this can't be happening.

I just had a wake up call
Wishing that I never let you fall
Baby you are not to blame at all.
When I'm the one that pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared
You'd have never went nowhere
Girl I should've been right there.

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

I can't get over you, no
Baby I don't wanna let go, no
Girl you need to come home
Girl come back to me
'Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
When you're not with me.

How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?

How do I breathe?
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light 
Where do I go
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe?